High School

I.
Am.
Scared.

Why?

Well one I'm going to have a HECK of a lot of homework...
I don't know if I am prepared for that...

I will be going to seminary... at SIX in the morning...
How am I supposed to do that AND get all my homework done WHILE trying to go to bed at a REASONABLE time??

Oh and did I mention that the thing that scares me most...

Is that I might lose you.

Lose contact, lose everything.

I don't know

I don't know what to say in this blog,

I am;

confused

frustrated

upset

...

What happened?

How could two people be so close,

and then all of a sudden... 

Failure.

How is that possible?

Could a relationship be purely based off of one occasion?

I don't know.

:/

Overboard

"It feels like we been out at sea... 

So back and forth that's how it seems...

And when I wanna' talk you say to me,

That if it's mean to be it will be.

So crazy is this thing we call love,

and now that we've got it we just can't give up.

I'm reaching out for you,

Got me out here in the water and I...

I'm overboard and I need your love,

Pull me up.

I can't swim on my own...

It's too much,

Feels like I'm drowning without your love...

So throw yourself out to me...

My Lifesaver."

<3 this song.

Memories

I'm going to fall in love,
Have my heart broken,
Find someone else...
Go to High School,
Meet new people...
Will you remember me?
What do I fear?

Rejection.

What do I want?
Friends,
Love,

Happiness.

I fear that I miss you,
But that you don't miss me.
That I know you,
But you don't know me.

Girls...
They fall hard for one guy...
Some girls,
Love every guy.
Think there the hottest thing around.
That every person just adores them.
Fallin' all over Mr.Popularity
But not me...
I like that one guy,
who's kinda' shy...
Not the most popular,
Not the best athlete,
Not as outgoing as all those other popular players he hangs out with,

But to me,
He's the best.
Nicest,
Cutest,
Smartest,
Funniest,
One of my Best Friends.

Am I in love?
I don't know... Because I don't just go "fall in love" with every guy that I see like those popular girls.
I don't just judge people by there "status" or how they look...
And I don't even necessarily want him to be my "boyfriend." Just my best friend.

But of all the thousands of places in the world...
How was I lucky enough to meet you?

Quotes

To My Haters:

"I keep it real and that's a promise.

I may be whatever you wanna call me, but I'm honest.

When I walk by you stop and stare.

Well, keep looking Cause I don't CARE.

I have my own life and style.

Not trying to please you or smile.

When it comes to competition, you're out.

So shut your hatin' self,

And keep me out of your mouth."

Take your time, don't live too fast... Troubles come and they will pass.

"Everything is okay in the end,
If it's not okay...
Then it's not the end."

"Laugh your heart out <3
Dance in the rain.

Cherish the moment,

Ignore the pain.

Live, Love, Laugh,

Forgive and Forget.

Life's too short to be

Livin' with regrets..."

:)

1-4-3

Do you frustrate the heck out of me? 

Yes.

Do I understand you?

I wish.

Do I love you?

Yes...