Do you remember?
Do you remember the first time we went on a "date"?
We saw Source Code, on a Saturday night with Cassi and her boyfriend Nick.
I remember that it was a Saturday night, because I remember my mom dropped me off, but Cassi had to take me home so that my Dad wouldn't see. The first time I ever really did something sneaky, the first time I really lied about what exactly I was doing, or who I was with.
I lost a little bit of that perfect girl that I was so comfortable with...
But I was willing to do it, because I liked you that much.
You made my heart race.
Gave me those little butterflies in my stomach.
Gave me that good little nervous feeling.
Everything about you, drew me in.
How you looked,
How you acted,
Your smile,
How you would slouch in your chair in the back of the classroom because you didn't know who to talk to,
The way you would give a little uncomfortable laugh when someone would try to talk to you, or ask you a question, because you were the new kid, who didn't know anyone,
But most of all,
I loved the way you made me feel.
How I could lose myself in you,
How when I was with you,
My worries seemed to go away.
I remember how I was so nervous but excited for that movie.
My first real date,
I remember how I had to do my hair perfectly,
Make sure my makeup was just right,
How I even went and got a new outfit,
So I could look my best.
I remember how I got there before you, and I was waiting for you to show up, sitting on that bench in Cinemark near the front doors, next to Cassi.
I remember how I saw you get out of your car, that red Suburban.
And how my heart was pounding out of my chest.
I remember how I just watched you come in,
I couldn't move,
Or even really talk.
And how all I could do,
was Laugh.
Yes I just put my head in my hands and laughed...
I remember that day like none other.
I remember how when you left I was sad,
I wished it could have gone on forever.
You walked out, and I let out a big breath,
Almost like I had been holding it in the whole time,
Because I was just so taken aback by you.
And then you walked back in,
And I was so happy, but confused.
You told me, with red cheeks,
that your mother wanted to meet me.
Jenifer.
I remember how I was so scared,
Scared that I would say the wrong thing, and that she wouldn't like me.
But I would do anything for you.
If you told me to fly, I would try. Even though I know it would be impossible.
Meeting your mom was the first step...
The first step,
in the best run of my life.
The run of my life,
That I had with you.
As time progressed, so did our relationship.
From going to the movies again,
To going to the movies alone,
To Holding Hands,
To Holding me in your arms,
To inviting me to your house,
To Kissing.
And then,
As high school came,
Our run was finished.
The day when you broke up with me,
The first week of high school.
When you got too tired from the run,
When it was no longer interesting to you.
And for me, it came so suddenly,
I fell.
I fell hard.
C.L.M
I grew so close to you,
You were my BEST FRIEND.
The one that I could tell anything.
I miss you,
and I can honestly say.
That it took me only one day,
for me to fall completely and inevitably in love with you.
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