Far Away

I will be starting High School in just a little over a week...

It's freaking scary.

At least for me it is...

I have those common fears;

Being late to class

Not being able to find my classes

Having mean teachers

Getting bad grades

Feeling out of place

Not fitting in

Being judged

Not having cute enough clothes (it's hard to keep up with the "styles..." especially while trying to maintain modesty as a mormon.. yes... a mormon)

Acne (gross)

Being teased

But out of all those things, the thing that scares me the most is...

Losing You.

People said they'd give us three weeks.... maybe a month.... haha did we show them or what? It's been much longer than that... :) 

But the thing is... we only have one class together this year... and it's apparently with the worst teacher in the school.

Just our luck. 

Can we make it through? How do you feel about me? Is this just a thing to pass your time? Please spare me if it is... 

I never wanted this at this age, I didn't wanna "love" any "stupid" boy... I mean cmon' boys have cooties... Gross. 

But somehow you caught me... I mean I still don't get it...

You're the quiet shy guy.... I'm loud and very social. 

You're the nerdy guy that always knows all of the answers... Sometimes I forget my times tables... (haha)

You're super athletic... I play sports for fun.

(Oh and not too mention, you annoy the crap out of me sometimes...)

I mean were pretty much complete OPPOSITES.

I guess it's true... Opposites attract?

If I could just have one thing in common with you it would be this...

That we both care about eachother... I have your back... You're my best friend.

Oh and I have a question... Why is it so hard to choke out the word "I love you" ? I can easily say them to my friends... guy friends too... but not you! 

Fear of rejection? I don't know...

But...

"I love you, I have loved you all along
And I forgive you for being away for far too long
So keep breathing cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it, hold on to me, never let me go."